The Courage to Blog

I must apologise that it has been some time since I last posted. I've disappointed myself a little as I did intend to post everyday. Let's be positive though... from today on I will post every day!

I've spent some time over the last couple of days browsing through other faith/religious blogs and am inspired by the kind of writing I see going on there. They make my own journey here seem quite insignificant and maybe Anne-Marie was right when shecommented to me that I am burdening an alreay burdened world, when I should be shepherding souls in plight and struggle.

I will admit that there is a temptation to slip into a ministering/preaching type role on this blog but I remind
myself that I established it for different reasons, more personal reasons. I have a need to convey something very real about myself
and my own journey to date. I haven't gotten into that as much as I would like to yet. Perhaps I'm shying away from speaking the full truth about myself and will have to muster up some courage. Or maybe there's just not as much to tell as I imagined!!

Revealing my soul doesn't come easily to me. That I choose to do it in the anonymous world of cyberspace reveals a cowardice in me, and yet I'm not feeling ashamed. I feel liberated. I feel I am beginning to make the first true expressions of myself that I have ever made. I feel I am beginning to know who I am and as this knowledge grows so will my freedom of expression. There is not doubt that this blog will be good for my soul!

Right now I'm in the middle of preparing a large and important annual mass and the concerns of the early days of this blog seem a million miles away. Maybe that's the key to leading a wholesome celibate life ... keep the mind too busy to listen to the heart ...! If only it was that simple!